o.m.g.

results came out today.

tried checking it the whole night but kia su people caused the whole server busy.

and that includes me. lol.

a recap of the few sems ago.

i failed in total 6 out of 8 subjects in two semesters.

the reason to semester one's failure:

mike.

i know taking a heartbreak as an excuse is just so stupid but yes it did happen to me unfortunately. haihss...

the reason to semester two's failure:

shio.

i was too carried away and too in love that i missed a final paper and totally left an assessment untouched..which meant that i was totally prepared to fail.

this sem:

honestly. i didn't study much. i got an egg for an assessment for MVS due to plagiarism. i failed the MS assignment. and i only had a pass for the MPS individual assessment.

and the final results are:

IM. Distinction.

MPS. Credit.

MVS. Pass.

MS. Pass.

i was rather impressed myself. not flattering myself but i've been having nightmares and praying hard to just pass.

but if it isn't the boy friend i would not have studied as effectively.

it's hols and i haven't been out of the lovely sydney.

called ang ku out of randomness the other day and he is up the mountain snowboarding.

very tempting but no thanks. jap class is just next week.

and it's just too late to make plans like that.

i know i've planned earlier to go melbourne but i had many things to do and friends were here.

so i cannot leave sydney.

and am praying hard to get a place in photography class.

pictures will be up on my holidays in sydney.

i haven't been uploading my new pictures on fb.

just too lazy. and just too many :)

i'm am awake officially for 24 hours now and i doubt i'd be sleeping.

i'm so awake now anyway.

will be out with jess, julie, jeannie at 1 p.m.

time for shopping. i've been a good girl and i deserved to be pampered.

my recent hunt:

bare back dress.

an analog cam.

gladiator sandals no? (i think it's just a one time hot item and then out in the next season).

more momijis :)

chanel flap bag. i don't think i'd get it soon. dont have the moolah you noe. it's bloody $3070 aus! suck blood.....

me and my chunky necklace! until now cannot find.

days ago i wanted to upload these _ _ _ but all thanks to the kura kura connection.

warning: this post may be inappropriate for readers who are camwhorephobic.

just to let you know...

home is great:)

i've finally accepted that i am not as happening.

the hype to club or party or whatever has dieded off.

the once 'i anything oso on' sumay has finally tamed down.

i see people me age party even harder as they grow when i feel so dead and bored.

would just sit down. stoned. and thinking why the hell i was even there in the first place.

being a true malaysian, who'll blame anything but not themselves, that's me.

i really think it's the gloomy weather.

i've been anticipating for a very interesting holiday, sketching plans after plans to do and see what turns out of the bloody plans?

i think they're all to be put on hold.

i cant go melbourne yet till the sister comes back.

and no. i'm not going to hawaii anymore.

doubt i'm snowboarding. the snow will freeze me!

by the time i wake up it's already dark. and cold too.

where am i to go then?

sad. sad. winter :(

so glad baby is back.

the end to my sleepless nights:)

i know i sound like a big chicken. a fact that i admit.

i woke up this morning crying to baby.

i must have been very tired these days.

the baby has just won footie!

yippie.

congrats ah bii.

i played remy and won above 10aud.

might go for a shopping spree tomorrow :)

god bless mr. cheah.

baby's already in brisbane for footie comp.

i'm so not used to sleeping alone :(

anyway two movie reviews from me:
sugar&spice

a japanese movie.

on love and having a grandma that rocks.

may be abit corny to some but the movie pleases me well enough :)

meet the zohan.

by adam sandler.

it's about the israelis and palestinians.

funny but too lame.

not worth watching at the cinemas.

good luck in footie ah bii!

it has been a while.

and i received a call from of all mother fucking person in the world.....

mike.

yesh. it was him.

we spoke alot for a long time.

i was almost carried away. talking comfortably with him. like a friend again. like how we used to.

but no no no. i wont fall for it.

i forgive but i wont forget. and anyway since then i've moved on and i just lost the feel.

and the boyfriend was so nice to understand me talking to him.

'thanks baby'

so the summary of it all?

i assume he had a fight with the girlfriend.

feeling a little lost and guilty of his decision to have dumped such a great ex down the drain.

exaggerated but it seems that way to me.

he wants to turn back.

not that i can't. the choice is in my own hands.

but i love my shio much.

he's someone i see a future with.

he's someone that i want to carry on life with.

and yes i dare to finally say this. i love him forever.

i am practically so used to him.

you're a product of the past and it was only bad times that i remembered.

"if you're jealous, then ask hean to stop showing you my fb!"

his numerous attempt to draw a heart failed badly.

and i couldn't write the 'e' in time.

but it was a good night.

and spain won :)

the baby left for brisbane to play football this morning.

as predicted he missed his flight and had to pay more instead.

LMAO.

i am not sure if i should be excited yet or anything but am so looking forward to the snowboarding trip end july.

we even spoke of a boat trip in spring.

really cant wait to strip to my bikinis then. haha.

reporting on last sunday.

me and the baby experimented on some stuff abit.

am displaying it next :)

city love edition.

on buddha's lost children.

i watched a documentary today.

on buddha's lost children.

touching.

i want to go there too.

how impulsive:)

i feel very fortunate.

and yes i have been living indenial for too long now.

i am very materialistic by fact.

all the money i have spent on material stuff can give so much to the society.

and it's crazy that i always don't feel contented just yet.

it's an eye opener for me. to see people living life this way.

what's most valuable is their life itself.

i called mom's but her phone was offed.

i really want her to make plans to go there.

i really want to meet these kids.

they're so cute and whenever they smile it makes me smile too :)

i'm done for this semester.

i admit i didn't really give my best shot.

am rather anxious about my results now.

scared like hell!

anyway.

sensation white will be held in melbourne on 31st of dec.

it's a life time opportunity and i'm contemplating on whether to stay on in japan if plan works or come back australia for the rave.

it's a once in a life time experience though.

tough call.

and mom called yesterday.

the bags she bought were the beverly mm and eva.

beverly...mmmm...not really a favourite.

but mom's been rather kind to pamper me this way.

wait till she sees the credit card bills this month and i'll get a whole lot to hear.

shit :(

it's my last paper!

i am not gonna sleep the whole night.

have to study!

stress-nya.

self note:

nail thursday's paper!

it's your last and fater that you can do anything in the world!

haihhhhhss.....

of cold feet.

not that i have been studying hard myself. the fact that i haven't even started!

stress is building up.

alright. what have i been up to?

after thursday's exam it was my own declared holiday.

lishin's bday party was on friday. not too bad. could have been better with baby there.

was playing remy on saturday at chew's till morning.

slept the whole afternoon for the few little times at my own place.

coloured sook foon's hair and went over to chew's again for remy.

yes i know. REMY is so addictive!

went over to yong's house for footie after that.

came back home early in the bloody morning to see this text on fb...

sharon:

'will be in sydney on monday til wed'

oh shit. my exam's on thurs!

i really wanna have as much time to take them around. but not worth to flung my paper.

moreover i've not even read a line for that subject.

just so wrong timing girl.

so what i did was went home, took a shower and met up with sharon&co.

and yes i didn't sleep.

went our whole day till their appointment with ping's uncle at 6.30.

had dinner with peter at almost 7 evening.

'sorry peter. i slept when you were talking'

my eyes could hardly open.

came back and 'bam' i just slam on the bed.

i oni took my contacts off at 3 am plus.

woke up today and took them to fishy market.

off i dropped them at a nearby bus stop to go sydney opera.

really sorry i coudn't join you guys.

AND JUST NOW.

received a phone call from sing.

was from parents.

my mom is in a funny mood.

she bought 3 lv's for me which is suprising cause she's always against such expensive brands.

a simple life is how she's always led life.

3 LVs alot man!

thanks alot but i feel really bad.

i feel so spoilt sometimes.

thanks again. you guys made my day.

hopefully this would be an excuse for me to study hard for thurs :(

pictures will be up after exams.

i haven't slept since last night again.

watched the spanish italiano match.

i am not an expert in footie but i was supporting the italians.

they lost! but buffon and cassilas was equally goos goal keepers.

will upload my latest pictures soon. lishin still has my cable.

and sharon&meihui is coming down!

am excited but it's just the wrong time.

they'd be here from monday till wednesday and the best thing is my exam's thursday.

a coincidence.

landing in a couple of hours. mind as well stay awake.

and ah yang makes me want to go europe so much. i dont mind flying this hols.

shit shit shit.

i've been trying my best to make the best out of my life.

not that i've never enjoyed my years living on planet earth.

but i believe i can be more productive instead of just living life the way it is right now.

i want to be as useful as possible!

haha. suprising how it's coming out from miss cheah's mouth.

will be joining this photo comp that is due 17th next month.

and i just came up with a brilliant idea on how to present it.

really hoping that i'd win.

it's gonna be tough. it's an international comp.

alright getting back to my ambitious plan of making my life more poly than mono.

1. continue my passion for photography. i should be joining much of those dA and lomo sites so i get feedback. then i noe where my photography skills stand.

2. i'm in the process of getting two books done. one for ah bii in conjuction with our 1 year anniversary. and another book purely for those who have actually been part of my life. and maybe one more for papa, mama and su :)

3. i'm enrolled in jap class for the third time! blame it on my short term memory and not eating enough banana. i cant seem to remember jap.

4. brush up on chinese!

5. probably work again next sem? maybe.

6. will take half a year off to travel the world. at my parents' expense! i know it sounds bad. but it's a gift for graduating :)

will blog tonight or tomorrow again.

can't wait to show the world my hair.

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYY SU MAY!

This post is specially for you darling!.. I know I haven't been there (physically) for the past 2 years but you are still very much my sayang and I love you to pieces!
I really miss those times in Subang where our friendship bonded and grew stronger.
I am so sorry that I wasn't there when you needed me most.
After reading your blog only I realised that you went through some hard times and I really hate that bastard for doing that to you.
I know you are my strong girl and I admire your strong courage and character.
I don't think I could handle such situation without my girls.
And you did it babe! I am very proud of you.
So, Happy Birthday Babe!
I gathered some of our pictures over the years..
Looking at it just reminded me of my teenager days and I am so glad you were part of it!
Muaaaxxxs

Nouvous, KL

Zouk, KL

F1 Renault Pit Party

Qbar 2, Sunway Pyramid

Mois, Penang

Miss you lots!! Hope to see you soon

courtesy of elizabeth thea

thanks babe.

really glad you were and are still apart of my life.

we've practically never had much time for each other since the start of our journey in the land down under.

you had your priorities and i had mine.

but you know. you know that i'll always be there for you no matter what too.

hope to see you when i get back for good by the end of the year.

more happy times to come :)

mmuah love.