i've finally accepted that i am not as happening.

the hype to club or party or whatever has dieded off.

the once 'i anything oso on' sumay has finally tamed down.

i see people me age party even harder as they grow when i feel so dead and bored.

would just sit down. stoned. and thinking why the hell i was even there in the first place.

being a true malaysian, who'll blame anything but not themselves, that's me.

i really think it's the gloomy weather.

i've been anticipating for a very interesting holiday, sketching plans after plans to do and see what turns out of the bloody plans?

i think they're all to be put on hold.

i cant go melbourne yet till the sister comes back.

and no. i'm not going to hawaii anymore.

doubt i'm snowboarding. the snow will freeze me!

by the time i wake up it's already dark. and cold too.

where am i to go then?

sad. sad. winter :(