i love you much.

i can never thank you enough.

you've always been my hot one.

and i've never met anyone who have clicked so well

in so many sense with me

to see him laugh

he's just so cute

his eyes just twinkle

to look at him

his lips

fuck.

irresistable

his body

fuck

just perfect. in my term

his touch's so wonderful that;

you know he knows the meaning of appreciating a girl.

i've never felt so blessed.

i know i'm dumb to have let go of such a beautiful thing

but i have my own other problems to deal with.

i cannot be selfish

but i'll always remember

this special boy

a rare breed

i still do crave alot for him.

i wanna kiss him like lollipop

i wanna hug him like there's no tomorrow

i wanna show him how much more i can offer

i want him so badly in my life

so bad that he's considered being a big part of my life

but sometimes

when it's not yours.

it's not

:(

' you are my drug. i am an addict'

i love you.

will always.

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all i want is just to hold you

& catch you tight

and never let go

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on photography. red hot ; )

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i'm depressed

but i don't want to fall again

because when i fall

i fall hard

i don't wanna get hurt again

i don't know how am i feeling

what do i really want

what do i need

i'm lost

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I find the map and draw a straight line

Over rivers, farms, and state lines

The distance from here to where you'd be

It's only finger-lengths that I see

I touch the place where I'd find your face

My finger in creases of distant dark places

I hang my coat up in the first bar

There is no peace that I've found so far

The laughter penetrates my silence

As drunken men find flaws in science

Their words mostly noises

Ghosts with just voices

Your words in my memory

Are like music to me

I'm miles from where you are

I lay down on the cold gound

I, I pray that something picks me up

And sets me down in your warm arms

After I have travelled so far

We'd set the fire to the third bar

We'd share each other like an island

Until exhausted, close our eyelids

And dreaming, pick up from

The last place we left off

Your soft skin is weeping

A joy you can't keep in

I'm miles from where you are,

I lay down on the cold gound

And I, I pray that something picks me up

and sets me down in your warm arms

And miles from where you are,

I lay down on the cold ground

and I, I pray that something picks me up

and sets me down in your warm arms
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feelin' it: it's your love by tim mcgraw and faith hill.

i wanna you to make me feel high

so high i can touch the sky

:(

but i know you're not my baby anymore

i'm not selfish

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lost it.

she's disappointed.

she's lost.

she's confused.

the time when she needs love most.

she just shuts herself off.

she's lost all sense of being in love again.

the affection she had for him.

it's just so strong.

but she has to let go.

she has to.

she cannot be selfish.

she's sometimes quite proud of herself.

for having to make such decisions.

it's not a small deal.

it's probably a decision of a matter of life and death.

and it was a good catch.

but being selfish will get her nowhere.

she may have lose.

but it would lift a burden off her chest.

she would maybe be better off alone.

free and single.

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my baby in action

eos 400D is a MUST HAVE.

good shit.

i'm still a lousy fart though ;)

i love it.

so much :)

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yippie. a kid once more.

feelin' it: sexy back by justin timberlake.

daytonas.

basket ball shits.

w double i.

gosh.

i know.

full shit load of fuggin games.

and hell yeah.

they're addictive ;)

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coogee. a photography session ;)









on the first night taking my baby out.
to snap some good shit :)

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sinking. for sure.

you know what's the hardest?

to actually let go of someone you love.

i dont think so but i am just feeling it now.

everything's just not right.

the only fucking pathetic option left is to let go.

hurting him.

hurting her.

she sits down everyday.

regret is what she fears most.

but does she have a choice?

no.

no matter what.

this is her only choice.

she cries because her heart can't speak.

sad and miserable is what she feels.

disappointed and torn.

is what he feels.

she feels sorry for what that have been done.

but it's probably just too late.

she's probably cut his heart too deep.

and she never meant it.

because she truly loves him.

the one that she craves for.

the one that she can never get enough of.

the one that she wants to see when she wakes up in the morning.

the one that she would long for his tender touch.

the one that she wants to feel his lips against hers.

the one that she wants his face close to hers.

the one that she needs his hugs most.

and most importantly.

his amazing love.

that's what she needs the most.

but she knows well that it's all over.

and she shouldn't be bitched about it.

she told herself.

she should just toughen herself and just let go.

for he is not meant for her.

and he hates her much.

and that she's not a girl worth being loved by a boy like him.

so it's time for her to just move on.

take them as memories. good and bad.

take them as the most perfect smooth sailing journey she has taken.

if she had only one more time.

to just say thank you to him.

for his true passionate love from the bottom of her heart.

the end.

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gloomy.

gloomy. been a while now.

a decision that by right easily made.

but because of a soft heart.

selfishness.

obstacle.

an easy decision eventually turned hard.

letting the time pass and just seeing how things will go used to be my style.

like what i always say

'if cannot, cannot la, fated , ma fated lo, take it easy'

not anymore.

following such motto might get the person i love most hurt.

so no way.

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where beers come in handy. again.

feelin' it: i wanna fuck you dirty by akon feat. snoop dogg.

chap goh meh.

party held on the sixth floor at the peak.

boys and girls were drinking as if that's their last night.

not me though.

i cant drink for shit :(

barbeque was tasty.

most people k.o. during the drinking game.

was hilarious how some of them were too blur.

those top scorers were lying flat up at my apartment after that.

fun night indeed.

photos. they're on the way ;)

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black orchid.

it's been a week now since i left malaysia.

my circle of friends have revolved.

comin' back to sydney has indeed its downturn and ups.

i've been so confused.

i want to get out of this shit.

but i dunno how.

i feel like a lil' girl.

i need daddy.

i really dunno how to deal with things right now.

fuck :(

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simplicity. the word doesn't apply. not anymore.

i still wanna be a small girl.

living in my own world.

once when you're older you'd realise.

life isn't just about living it.

as times goes by.

everyone gets more complicated.

i just missed being a lil' plain jane not having to worry bout anything.

mummy would always settle things for me.

a young adult i am.

i'm in a difficult situation right now.

confusion. that's the worse that could happen.

as i grow i create more sins.

sins that you cannot regret.

but only learn.

make you a better person.

because i know reality.

and fairytale.

they're just different.

oh my god.

i am being such a pusst at times.

i'm still stuck in the cinderella era!

shito.

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