so home....

my parents left for melbourne this morning :(

almost teared when i took the taxi back to white chick's place.

times with my parents were awesome.

and it got me time to think about my relationship too.

i just realised i cannot really live without shio.

well just as much as i enjoy being with my parents..

i was crazily thinking bout my baby..ALL THE TIME!

and i really think that i should start acting like a lady and be a very good girlfriend.

we're going for the floriade festival in canberra on friday.

triple :):):)

everything is just too clear now.

i know it is a bit weird.

but whatever my sister's friend said, she had all the answers circled.

10/10.

she said:

1. you have many friends. but you have problem trusting. you you'd rather have one or two to keep.

2. you have a boyfriend. he's given you a ring. but you choose not to get married. cause you dont think it's the right one?

3. shopping is your companion. money is the source. spend drift!

4. people just fall for you because of your eyes. your eyes speaks.

5. some secrets of yours are to be buried. away from your boyfriend especially. it was a bad past and you don't wish to turn back. fear he might not accept.

6. why worry in the future when more money would flow in.

7. you have good intentions in you. shouldn't you just loosen up abit?

8. your parents love you. and they're the best you can ever have.

my sister's friend could tell me all this just by looking at my features and my drawing.

a few days ago i was just blogging about how i felt about the boyfren.

i am abit scared now.

i am not ready for a lot of things.

and beginning to doubt if i should still continue.

i cannot live without him. just yet.

but something just feels so wrong.

perfect but not yet.

but he is a god damn refined man.

i mean which boyfriend would do laundry for you.

which boyfriend would cook for you.

and..and..clean your messy room.

and dry your hair for you.

and pays everything for you.

and wash the dishes.

they were all my duties but i just couldn't be bothered.

i want to be the princess.

and no guy should treat me lower.

and after thinking, it's not him who is the problem.

it is..me.

and yet i still find reasons to pick up a fight.

it makes him tired. and i am too.

he even told me:

' my ambition is not to become a househusband'

in times like this, i just feel like i don't have anyone to turn to.

it's really the obvious that it's my own bloody problem.

maybe i'm just to egoistic.

or a stuck up...

or too demanding..

sigh...

what should i do?

my first ray ban:)

every album must be associated with max's. i am coco addict.

she looks so cute here ;)



what a retard.


tourists take picture like this.

internet is now back on high speed.

haven't had the time to blog too cause little sis was here.

i feel so much better now.

having a real gf with me after so long feels so nice :)

we went shopping. like shit i tell you.

we spent money literally like water.

we ate our hearts out. well sort of.

and life felt so great again.

i cant wait for round no.2 this friday!

mummy and daddy will be here!

meantime.

assignments has to be done. which unfortunately with my skipping to joy attitude,

i really do not have the mood for books.

will get my hair dyed pitch black.

hair colour is super lala now.

will leave photographs of my sister's visit in the next post.

maybe. just maybe.

i really wonder.

and just maybe?

i'm faking a life that may seem perfect?

i look cool, but i may be a nerd by heart?

people think i am pretty, or is it cause of the layers of make up i slap on my face?

i may be a smoker, is it cause i cannot beat them i must join them?

i look like the most happening person, or am i just someone who prefers home by nature?

i have many friends, do i really need so many? or do i really call them friends?

i think i love my boy fren alot, or is it cause i am obliged to?

i just feel. just maybe.

sometimes i'm just trying too hard to satisfy myself.

or maybe it's just a way to push myself to perfection.

but do i feel happy by the end of the day?

honestly...

i really have no idea. and i really dont think so. i really need a break.

the city makes me feel boxed. they're really suffocating me metaphoricly.

boy fren has to go too. i really want my time alone.

oh well....

i am just so relieved that someone tomorrow will make me feel so at home.

my sister is coming to town :)

a tad disappointed.

i got only a credit for photography task 1.

which is a bad thing of course.

my passion for photography is so deep that i'll kill myself if things aren't just perfect.

okay. maybe too exaggerated.

but come on. almost everyone in class had credits.

even the ones i thought were shit.

i should just probably stop complaining and get into taking it as a motivation.

a drive to improve?

haha.

good news.

i won my bid in bay.

for some sailor jacket.

yippee!

movie review's in right now..

1. if only.
it was by accident i found this movie.

was looking through the comedy genre when i found this.

it turned out the other way round.

i cried my eyeballs out for this movie.

a love story with a drop of twisted ending.

2. little mermaid.
ooo..i love the story.

maybe i am still a girl who loves fairytale.

i really want to name my little girl ariel too:)

just some random thinking.

just when i thought that i have been maturing bit by bit....

now i think i am maturing backwards.

i am like a little kid again.

courtesy of via alley

and i landed in the land photography once again.

i was going through some random websites and i found cameras by powershovel.

the creator of a Japanese company and i am bloody tempted to get one myself.