the gay boy and i.

life is a carousel.

up and down. round&round.

wish i'm not as uptight.

wish i'm carefree.

wish i'm myself.

feeling korean popp these days ;)

and my gay boy came up.

ah yeh&ah mah.

life just stopped for a moment a week plus ago.

everything that meant nothing to me suddenly flash right infront of me.

it was the little important details that i missed..took them for granted.

i suddenly felt appreciative..because..

and just because...it may be the last chance i will ever have to make things right..

it suddenly occurred to me life isn't just short.

but very. short.

i've made a decision. and over it.

i will regret in one way or another.

i only took the best interest as of this point in my life.

and don't worry. so much that it saddens me and i want to forget.

i will remember and still remember.

because you are worth remembering:)

smeared.

flightless bird, american mouth.

you rock my world.

i'm gonna make you my wedding song.

my kind of peace.

through photography.






and these four songs.

let me sign.

never think.

claire de lune.

meet me on the equinox.

it just feels..

unright..

i feel..

split..

and i suddenly don't know which side to pick..

not black..

not white...

i am settling with grey..

but why now?

top played.

knock you down. kanye.

hoppipolla. sigur ros.

you, me, & the bourgeoisie. the submarines.

trouble is a friend. lenka.

catastrophe & the cure. explosions in the sky.

kids. mgmt.

daniel. bat for lashes.

nantes. beirut.

warwick avenue. duffy.

my mascara smells like peanut butter.

makes me hungry.

of cold feet. & hands.

been sick since tuesday.

road to recovery now:)

i've been hapili/sadli lost for 8 months now.

i think it's time to do something life changing.

and i believe i can.

do you believe in me?

gloom.

everyone around me especially those who are much bonded seem to be confusing me these days.

i can hardly trust anyone.

i feel this way even to the closest to me.

just as i thought i've had a handful of good people on my side, i suddenly lost hold of them.

i dont know why.

the boy weep-ed today.

and this incident confuses me.

just as soon as i was to give up everything silently, you started pouring your heart out like you've never before.

and for the first time we actually listened and..and accepted each's differing explanations.

why now?

i've always wished life would have been simpler/ i'd be a less complicated character..

in my situation right now..all i am wishing right now is to be...

happily lost.

the training. manU.

daddy looks so happy:)




manU dwarf.

jam was about an hour. and it was just to get out of the carpark.