i have to work tomorrow.

fark.

baby shio sleeping noisily.

how cute.

love you baby.

was just thinking how cute he was the other day.

was typing my journal for amr when baby called me half way when he was asleep.

'baby. baby..i love you soooo much'

he kissed me.

and 'pop'

he went to sleep.

dead asleep.

hehe.

just now.

i went home to look for my tax file.

saw a few of my bank statement.

the money i sent to the bastard.

really reminded me of the most valuable lesson.

haih.

hitting my dreamland soon.

i have to work!

in the morning!

bloody hell.

kesakitan mata :(

i wanna thank baby.

so sorry for being OA in the morning.

so sorry that you have to stand me goin all man chang.

thank you very much for being so patient with me.

and sending me to the clinic.

love you baby.

was a confirmation that i have an eye infection.

baby made sure i have my eye drops every hour.

so nice of him.

doctor was apparently malaysian.

told him i worked at this malaysian place.

he sounded very eager to try this restaurant out.

haha.

had a small halloween party just now.

no one dressed up which was not suprising.

everyone drinking and having happy sessions.

was in my room most of the time.

watched a thai movie.

mmm.

not that it was too scary.

but i admit myself i'd be scared if i have to sleep alone tonight.

heading to dreamland in a while.

just made baby sugar cane drink.

i know baby's tired.

thank you again.

lub.
doctor was apparently malaysian.

told him i worked at this malaysian place.

he sounded very eager to try this restaurant out.

haha.

had a small halloween party just now.

no one dressed up which was not suprising.

everyone drinking and having happy sessions.

was in my room most of the time.

watched a thai movie.

mmm.

not that it was too scary.

but i admit myself i'd be scared if i have to sleep alone tonight.

heading to dreamland in a while.

just made baby sugar cane drink.

i know baby's tired.

thank you again.

lub.

today.

saturday.

our break day.

a new assignment to begin with tomorrow.

shit to desu.

we had a session of camwhoring today.

lovin' it.

love you baby.

my hot stuff.

the precious one.

assignments unfortunately has been killing us.

god.

baby. i wish i have more than 24 hours a day.

i wanna spend so much time with you.

working tires me out.

and i really miss you during my working hours.

you're the best that have happened.

i know i can always say this in every relationship when you're in love.

but with you.

trust me.

i mean it.

you're the ultimate perfect one in my terms.

loving you too much.

haha.

mmuah.

on the 21st this month.

happy anniversary baby.

now i know how they feel.

i've never been a very particular person.

but after being a waitress,

i totally do understand how much mafan ness you have to go through

especially when you come across fussy people.

was a busy day at work today.

met one too many of these dawgs.

lucky shirley was there working too.

not forgetting chew and sean to have helped us out as well.

baby left phone at home.

was a bit frustrated.

he did not answer his phone.

then it came to my realisation tha he might have left his bimbit home.

was missing him the whole time during work.

kept checking my phone for any text from him.

but he never did

:(

he could have at least used ric's to call anyway.

went back to his'

specially made tong yuen for him though i was abit pissed.

was rejected pula at first.

what the?

haih.

and i am not finished with tfs.

fark that shit.

i'd be waking up tomorrow to do it i guess.

too tired right now.

i want a massage!

note to baby shio:

sorry if i did throw baby tantrums on you.

i dont mean to.

but i was already so tired at work.

i'd always try to text or at least read my hp whenever i'm free.

just a text using ric's phone wud not kill.

at least put your self in my position just now.

i was so busy.

but i kept trying to call.

anyway love you.

hope you understand.

too many pecks a day?

at last i have time to blog abit without baby's knowledge.

he's snoring like a pig now.

and he's so cute :)

yesterday i ter kam tong.

baby woke up earlier than me.

and he gave me so many pecks in 2 hours.

not that i pretended to sleep.

but i cud feel it.

opened my eyes a few times.

how many guys would be as observant as him?

how many guys would be so willing to blow dry your hair?

unless he's a hairdresser maybe?

amazing love showered on me.

i love you baby shio.

will be off to fish market in a few hours time.

then it's working in the evening.

yay.

more money coming in.

good night.

am gonna hand up my bloody assignmnent a day late.

haih.

baby shio's sleeping beside me.

i feel so happy.

i see him like 24 hours a day.

well almost except when i'm working.

but i some how still miss him much.

a great guy at heart.

but i know i am one lucky girl.

we've now been together for only almost a month.

but we've always felt that we've been one a long time.

i love you shio.

and i really mean it.

not forever but for as long as i can.

sleep tight baby.

waking you up in a couple of hours.

mmuah.

shio. my baby.

he makes me bread and nutella.

he loves me we all his heart (i supposed)

and he deserves my love.

i love you baby.

i know i haven't been spending time with my friends.

no one but shio.

but i hope they understand.

we're still new.

and we really love each other so much.

and he's one of the best gift ever.

i'd never ask for more.

here's one for the boy i <3

god will always be fair i supposed.

just when i thought i lost the person i loved most.

probably god was just hinting he was a bastard.

every effort i put in previously.

i never got anything back in return.

not that i was always hoping for something.

all i wanted from mike was to appreciate me.

but he never did.

but shio.

it's a different story.

anything done for him.

he'd thank me.

he's love me like there's no tomorrow.

his eyes' so full of shit that he cant even see that my face is actually ugly.

this is what i call love.

anything that i invest in this relationship right now is so worth it.

i probably think that shio is not in the acting mode because this relationship is still new.

i do believe that he's a very nice person.

and for that he deserves my love.

i love him very very much.

it's so worth sacrificing for this pretty boy.

he never fails to tickle my heart.

my pretty boy.

you can see we're bollywood people ;)

i wanna wake up everyday right be side you.

with love.

may.

they just come and go.

i am not depressed.

but i just feel sick of those around me sometimes.

they're just around you cause they need you.

when help not needed anymore,

*poof*

they just walk away from you.

just like that.

i have feelings too.

i don't know man.

i just get so sick with people of this kind.

alot of pat kua recently.

since going out with shio alot of people been talking.

single oso you all say hiao.

now got boy friend dee still let you all cat.

what the hell? you all to free is it.

i mean i have my own life and i never bothered bout what others' up to.

but eventually i kena juga.

aiiiiyooooooooo.

am gonna go back and boil the bamboo thing in a while for baby.

miss him.

he's playing foot ball now ;)

it'a been a week now with baby shio.

but we felt like we've been together for a long time now.

i never thought he could have been someone who's quite deep in a way.

i love him.

inside out.

i count myself being commited to him now.

there's nothing i would change about him.

at lease he's someone i love that i get loved by him in return.

he loves me for who i am.

that's according to him and i take it as the truth i supposed.

i wou;d never ask for more.

he's just perfect in my terms.

i feel lucky.

truly lucky.

i wuv you shio.

on the 21st.

i felt like the luckiest girl.

a new beginning to being attached again.

thanks for making me believe again.

you rock my world.

and i love you so much baby shio.

;)

was waiting.

and waiting.

dia talipon.

mengarut sehingga tujuh pagi :)

and yes i am sick and dead.

so bloody busy tomorrow man.

i'm just waiting

:)

i noticed.

shall wait and see.

;)

my english standard may not be as powderful as my english teacher's

but listening to sudents present can sometimes be so hilarious.

especially international ones.

shio me and seong would always have to bloody control our laughter during s.e. classes.

last week was some guy who talks like the chingy in the chuck and larry show.

he kept saying chircle.

*sweats*

today was this 3 girls, two from chilli and one more we cud not figure out.

anyway they were so funny, 7000 was pronounced 700.

whole was spelled as hole.

and the girl whom we cud not figure her origins would always end every single word that has an 's' with a long 'z'

god. and we were all sitting in front.

hai to the lats man.

and there was this gigantic guy. he always say 'umm....' loud and long.

goddd.

limpek neng.

and i was late for another presentation.

again.

haih.

but lucky that our presentation's postponed to the week after next due to lack of time.

just finished a paper yesterday.

hai lat.

last minute as usual.

some bitches just dont know when to stop messing with my life.

went to star city.

won 100 bucks.

contented enough :)

this morning.

tapao dimsum at zilvers.

syoknya.

i'm just waiting

;)

futsal. kalah gila.

they made me wake up early.

just to be their photographer.

and they kalah gila that day.

ma hai la.

it's okay boys.

i know you guys are capable.

just blunderness that was a factor.

shio.

daryl.

yong.

chew.

kc.

ariff.

kc agaib.

chern yip.

on sunday.

it was dinner at chinta.

yummy :)

kc. yong.

rokok session.

ariff rojak and i.

wei chin and the lv ;)

on saturday.

we cooked nasi lemak.

and i am so proud cause i can make the sambal ikan bilis.

hehe.

of course with the help from the girls.

haha.

on friday.

pot luck.

the guys played wii, p.s. & nintendo ds

:)

wii.

theng.

somehow.

i'd always feel okay.

but the past few days was abit..um..fudged up?

haha.

nothing much.

just missing those times when i had somebody to cuddle with.

but i am so not ready to be in one.

which makes alot of difference.

why be in a relationship when you know you cannot give.

but i am just so tempted.

i am happy and single.

but i do feel lonely at times.

and it is an obvious fact that i'd feel jealous when i see love birds.

not that i hate them,

but they would always be the culprits to have triggered my senses again.

sudden miss.

i miss liz.

best friends since subang.

she's been there for me.

my shopping partner.

th gprs girl.

without her and i'd be lost.

glad to have been friends.

remembering the old times suck.

haha.

times when we used to go out in similar clothings coincidentally.

how her dog's always hyper.

and driving everywhere with her manual car.

itwas all the good old times

and i hope to see ya soon.

i admit i am having fun in sydney.

but we you here it would have been the bomb.

love you sayang.

i feel so demotivated.

i am always like that.

when i slack i blame it on the weather.

i noe it's like 'what the fark?'

but i can't help it.

born a procrastinator.

shit. i am so full of excuses.

exam's exactly in six days.

and i haven't even attended a class for that sub.

yes i am serious.

some update on my life.

mmm.

everything's so so.

fought with a friend.

and for the first time in so long i am not forgiving.

why?

she went way be beyond my limits.

love life's not too good.

am still not prepared.

but i get lonely and too picky sometimes.

but it's something that i have to get used to.

i want to be single for as long as i can.

it's good to see alot of fresh ones around.

but it's just not time for them to be caught yet.

shiao's last day.

watched the guys play footie.

took a few test shots before the tournament.

love those pictures.

looks pretty good to me.

and it's also shiao's last night here with me

:(

i miss that bitch a lot.

i do.

yong.

shio.

seong.

shio.

sean.

riff.

pei.

jump shorty jump ;)

lo.

not edited. i swear.

just the right timing.