i'm born a whiner. always. will be. a whiner.
flash back.
back when i was in primary.
if i could recall life was jolly and carefree.
small little things like cat fight and who's my best friend were the only small issues to worry.
and i hated my sister back then. she gets the attention more than i do. lol.
but life was good.
secondary.
my neighbour was a boy school.
at that time our sexual innuendo has probably devoloped..THUS..crushes came after that.
the attempts to attract guys were IN trend
and trying to outdo friends to be miss popularwere common.
i was quite a quiet decent girl back then. only known for my straight long hair.
not too nerdy and not too hot.
always thinking of completing school sooner cause studying sucks.
many things that have to be memerozied and growing up, i taught would be more fun.
big girls get to put make up without being tagged hiao.
big girls get to go clubbing.
big girls have total freedom and attract more guys.
and that was what i taught at first.
mom back home was very protective.
throughout highschool my uncle was my sis&i's bodyguard.
there were few attempts on some gangsters trying to kidnap us for ransom.
mom didn't allow internet access for me. she said it was dangerous. haha.
i was quite rebellious then. having to do anything just to agitate her.
moving on to life after highschool.
college was nice. i met many friends.
small conflicts here and there.
studying for me back then was stressful.
so many new things to remember would have been the usual statement i'd use.
clubbing was fun at first till i was restricted by my boy at that time.
insecurities he always felt led me to staying home or being with him.
but life was still good. i needn't have to worry about money.
my daddy was and still the best :)
uni life.
i moved to kl to start uni.
that's when i met more friends.
kl girls were hot.
they wore high heels to uni which came as a suprise.
cause ah may was still a tomboy.
she never liked wearing skirt and would only wear pants.
i've always felt very chubby and fat.
so i'd never be comfortable wearing anything too tight.
baggy was my style back then.
it was there i made a few good friends and they are still right now.
some from pg. and some kl.
elizabeth. peggy. kelly. gino. ting. ben.
life as a student was hard for me because i choose to not remember things.
i choose to hate studying.
so the semesters after the first was just pass. pass. pass.
and then it was time that i'd continue studying abroad.
decision was hard. much were going through my head.
i had one of the best times in malaysia and now i have to leave my friends and boyfren at that time.
shit. but i decided to anyway.
sydney here i come.
it was miserable for the first month.
whining. and more whining.
to make matters worst it was winter and i hate the cold :(
winter made bright days gloomy.
winter made me feel sick and wanting to just curl into my small blanket.
winter made me feel like i needed a hug badly.
i didn't even know what to expect from the land down under.
adapting was this utmost survival.
studying was obviously harder compared to in KL.
and today...
this is my last sem already. i am really happy that life as a student is ending soon...which means no more studying for me..but i feel abit scared all at the same time.
dad has been making me happy with the unlimited moolah. to make sure i dont eat shit and i shop enough.
to be off my dad's shelter would prove a great challenge.
no more enjoying good food.
no more spa and massage pampering.
no more impulsive shopping.
haih...
but looking on the bright side.
buying things with your own money makes you appreciate the something more.
thinking about my future scares me much :(
am really praying luck would be on my side by then.
but then again i feel bad taking a half year off and traveling at my dad's expense even after i have graduated.
flash back.
back when i was in primary.
if i could recall life was jolly and carefree.
small little things like cat fight and who's my best friend were the only small issues to worry.
and i hated my sister back then. she gets the attention more than i do. lol.
but life was good.
secondary.
my neighbour was a boy school.
at that time our sexual innuendo has probably devoloped..THUS..crushes came after that.
the attempts to attract guys were IN trend
and trying to outdo friends to be miss popularwere common.
i was quite a quiet decent girl back then. only known for my straight long hair.
not too nerdy and not too hot.
always thinking of completing school sooner cause studying sucks.
many things that have to be memerozied and growing up, i taught would be more fun.
big girls get to put make up without being tagged hiao.
big girls get to go clubbing.
big girls have total freedom and attract more guys.
and that was what i taught at first.
mom back home was very protective.
throughout highschool my uncle was my sis&i's bodyguard.
there were few attempts on some gangsters trying to kidnap us for ransom.
mom didn't allow internet access for me. she said it was dangerous. haha.
i was quite rebellious then. having to do anything just to agitate her.
moving on to life after highschool.
college was nice. i met many friends.
small conflicts here and there.
studying for me back then was stressful.
so many new things to remember would have been the usual statement i'd use.
clubbing was fun at first till i was restricted by my boy at that time.
insecurities he always felt led me to staying home or being with him.
but life was still good. i needn't have to worry about money.
my daddy was and still the best :)
uni life.
i moved to kl to start uni.
that's when i met more friends.
kl girls were hot.
they wore high heels to uni which came as a suprise.
cause ah may was still a tomboy.
she never liked wearing skirt and would only wear pants.
i've always felt very chubby and fat.
so i'd never be comfortable wearing anything too tight.
baggy was my style back then.
it was there i made a few good friends and they are still right now.
some from pg. and some kl.
elizabeth. peggy. kelly. gino. ting. ben.
life as a student was hard for me because i choose to not remember things.
i choose to hate studying.
so the semesters after the first was just pass. pass. pass.
and then it was time that i'd continue studying abroad.
decision was hard. much were going through my head.
i had one of the best times in malaysia and now i have to leave my friends and boyfren at that time.
shit. but i decided to anyway.
sydney here i come.
it was miserable for the first month.
whining. and more whining.
to make matters worst it was winter and i hate the cold :(
winter made bright days gloomy.
winter made me feel sick and wanting to just curl into my small blanket.
winter made me feel like i needed a hug badly.
i didn't even know what to expect from the land down under.
adapting was this utmost survival.
studying was obviously harder compared to in KL.
and today...
this is my last sem already. i am really happy that life as a student is ending soon...which means no more studying for me..but i feel abit scared all at the same time.
dad has been making me happy with the unlimited moolah. to make sure i dont eat shit and i shop enough.
to be off my dad's shelter would prove a great challenge.
no more enjoying good food.
no more spa and massage pampering.
no more impulsive shopping.
haih...
but looking on the bright side.
buying things with your own money makes you appreciate the something more.
thinking about my future scares me much :(
am really praying luck would be on my side by then.
but then again i feel bad taking a half year off and traveling at my dad's expense even after i have graduated.
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