city love edition.

on buddha's lost children.

i watched a documentary today.

on buddha's lost children.

touching.

i want to go there too.

how impulsive:)

i feel very fortunate.

and yes i have been living indenial for too long now.

i am very materialistic by fact.

all the money i have spent on material stuff can give so much to the society.

and it's crazy that i always don't feel contented just yet.

it's an eye opener for me. to see people living life this way.

what's most valuable is their life itself.

i called mom's but her phone was offed.

i really want her to make plans to go there.

i really want to meet these kids.

they're so cute and whenever they smile it makes me smile too :)

i'm done for this semester.

i admit i didn't really give my best shot.

am rather anxious about my results now.

scared like hell!

anyway.

sensation white will be held in melbourne on 31st of dec.

it's a life time opportunity and i'm contemplating on whether to stay on in japan if plan works or come back australia for the rave.

it's a once in a life time experience though.

tough call.

and mom called yesterday.

the bags she bought were the beverly mm and eva.

beverly...mmmm...not really a favourite.

but mom's been rather kind to pamper me this way.

wait till she sees the credit card bills this month and i'll get a whole lot to hear.

shit :(

it's my last paper!

i am not gonna sleep the whole night.

have to study!

stress-nya.

self note:

nail thursday's paper!

it's your last and fater that you can do anything in the world!

haihhhhhss.....

of cold feet.

not that i have been studying hard myself. the fact that i haven't even started!

stress is building up.

alright. what have i been up to?

after thursday's exam it was my own declared holiday.

lishin's bday party was on friday. not too bad. could have been better with baby there.

was playing remy on saturday at chew's till morning.

slept the whole afternoon for the few little times at my own place.

coloured sook foon's hair and went over to chew's again for remy.

yes i know. REMY is so addictive!

went over to yong's house for footie after that.

came back home early in the bloody morning to see this text on fb...

sharon:

'will be in sydney on monday til wed'

oh shit. my exam's on thurs!

i really wanna have as much time to take them around. but not worth to flung my paper.

moreover i've not even read a line for that subject.

just so wrong timing girl.

so what i did was went home, took a shower and met up with sharon&co.

and yes i didn't sleep.

went our whole day till their appointment with ping's uncle at 6.30.

had dinner with peter at almost 7 evening.

'sorry peter. i slept when you were talking'

my eyes could hardly open.

came back and 'bam' i just slam on the bed.

i oni took my contacts off at 3 am plus.

woke up today and took them to fishy market.

off i dropped them at a nearby bus stop to go sydney opera.

really sorry i coudn't join you guys.

AND JUST NOW.

received a phone call from sing.

was from parents.

my mom is in a funny mood.

she bought 3 lv's for me which is suprising cause she's always against such expensive brands.

a simple life is how she's always led life.

3 LVs alot man!

thanks alot but i feel really bad.

i feel so spoilt sometimes.

thanks again. you guys made my day.

hopefully this would be an excuse for me to study hard for thurs :(

pictures will be up after exams.

i haven't slept since last night again.

watched the spanish italiano match.

i am not an expert in footie but i was supporting the italians.

they lost! but buffon and cassilas was equally goos goal keepers.

will upload my latest pictures soon. lishin still has my cable.

and sharon&meihui is coming down!

am excited but it's just the wrong time.

they'd be here from monday till wednesday and the best thing is my exam's thursday.

a coincidence.

landing in a couple of hours. mind as well stay awake.

and ah yang makes me want to go europe so much. i dont mind flying this hols.

shit shit shit.

i've been trying my best to make the best out of my life.

not that i've never enjoyed my years living on planet earth.

but i believe i can be more productive instead of just living life the way it is right now.

i want to be as useful as possible!

haha. suprising how it's coming out from miss cheah's mouth.

will be joining this photo comp that is due 17th next month.

and i just came up with a brilliant idea on how to present it.

really hoping that i'd win.

it's gonna be tough. it's an international comp.

alright getting back to my ambitious plan of making my life more poly than mono.

1. continue my passion for photography. i should be joining much of those dA and lomo sites so i get feedback. then i noe where my photography skills stand.

2. i'm in the process of getting two books done. one for ah bii in conjuction with our 1 year anniversary. and another book purely for those who have actually been part of my life. and maybe one more for papa, mama and su :)

3. i'm enrolled in jap class for the third time! blame it on my short term memory and not eating enough banana. i cant seem to remember jap.

4. brush up on chinese!

5. probably work again next sem? maybe.

6. will take half a year off to travel the world. at my parents' expense! i know it sounds bad. but it's a gift for graduating :)

will blog tonight or tomorrow again.

can't wait to show the world my hair.

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYY SU MAY!

This post is specially for you darling!.. I know I haven't been there (physically) for the past 2 years but you are still very much my sayang and I love you to pieces!
I really miss those times in Subang where our friendship bonded and grew stronger.
I am so sorry that I wasn't there when you needed me most.
After reading your blog only I realised that you went through some hard times and I really hate that bastard for doing that to you.
I know you are my strong girl and I admire your strong courage and character.
I don't think I could handle such situation without my girls.
And you did it babe! I am very proud of you.
So, Happy Birthday Babe!
I gathered some of our pictures over the years..
Looking at it just reminded me of my teenager days and I am so glad you were part of it!
Muaaaxxxs

Nouvous, KL

Zouk, KL

F1 Renault Pit Party

Qbar 2, Sunway Pyramid

Mois, Penang

Miss you lots!! Hope to see you soon

courtesy of elizabeth thea

thanks babe.

really glad you were and are still apart of my life.

we've practically never had much time for each other since the start of our journey in the land down under.

you had your priorities and i had mine.

but you know. you know that i'll always be there for you no matter what too.

hope to see you when i get back for good by the end of the year.

more happy times to come :)

mmuah love.

liz.

i hate being an emotional chick.

but you made me cry.

shit. i'm such a puss.

thanks

my first victoria bikinis :)

courtesy of victoriasecret.com

i just bought a bikini from victoria secret.

cost a bloody 300rm. very weak in resisting.

damn nice! will display the pictures one it arrives from the U.S.

i have a paper tomorrow.

i just finished a paper today which i am quite confident.

at least would score a past.

and for tomorrow's paper?

i've just started studying today!

lesson learnt today:

never start last minute.

i've learnt such a lesson last semester. and the previous semester... and the previous semester. and would say i have learnt this lesson since i've started studying in uni.

why am i repeating the same shit?

stress. stress. stressto desu.

:(

i went to the hall panicked at first.

i practiced enough the night before.

just the feeling of entering the exam room a few hours to sit for the hardest paper throughout this semester scares me much.

i just couldn't think.

i was still practicing the maths.

felt relieved that i could do them but the panicky feeling came back again.

i took a smoke.

went back in.

'alright this is it. my brain's not a sponge. i've done whatever i can'

entered the exam room.

filled in the details and waited till the start time.

'your examination starts now'

open the booklet.

i could do the calculations but miss cheah forgot to check the time once in a while.

i know it's a huge mistake.

'you have 10 more minutes'

i was rushing to finish one more table for the constraint calculation.

hai lat. i left a few more blanks.

i think the paper was...okay...

just needed more time.

i still have 3 more papers waiting!

18th and 19th is doom's day.

i haven't even started studying on these papers.

cannot believe that my date with shio on my birthday for 360 degrees will be postponed..

our studying schedule is too tight.

blame it on us. we're lazy people.

studying late is what we do.

:(

one more semester is coming to an end.

alot has happened again.

which i am obviously glad.

life would have been stagnant without dramas anyway.

friends, as usual they come and go.

i have friends all pinned in so many cities all around the world.

in times when i needed them they're not just a drive away.

a call is just not enough.

it's the reality of just growing up and getting out of your comfort zone.

i sometimes miss home badly..it's not just a drive away.

in fact it's thousand of miles from me.

it's good sometimes to just recall on the events these past months.

old times is some place that i can never turn back i should say.

they're one of the best.

happy that i do not have many close friends but probably just a handful.

sad that some have already drifted.

where do i stand in their hearts?

i really dont know :(

a friend message on fb a few days ago:

"Hey love,

I'm still waiting for you to call me to meet up for lunch... I know 1 hour isn't much but thats all I have these days. I could try stay back after work but I do live 1.25 hours train ride away from the city now.

It's just difficult these days.

I am terribly sorry that has become another reason why our friendship have been slowly drifting apart. I am sadden by it and I hope that however wouldn't always be the case.

I don't work very far away from MArtin Place. Just 3 minutes walk away. Find sometime one of these day to meet me for lunch. It'll make me happy.

I really hope to talk/see you soon. If you want, I can make it for lunch next Tuesday. How bout that? Or any other lunch anyway... Just let me know okay?

Love lots, always"

is it that difficult to actually maintain a friendship?

i really get confused sometimes.

anyway some movie reviews.

movie no.1:

Ah Long Pty Ltd.

watched it ages ago. it's singaporean and directed my jack neo of course.

i love the show. lame shit but damn funny.

wife miss macho and husband si ah kua.

funny probably cause i understand hokkien :)

movie no.2:

21.

this show's based on a true story.

they're genius people to have hacked the code.

again. a thumbs up.

movie no.3:

what happens in vegas..

my favourite too!

it's pure comedy but..um...

i tink ending's normally predictable for such movies.

anyway, nice!

movie no.4:

harold&kumar.

lame shit again.

i find it funny.

abit too lame sometimes.

i have yet to watch satc.

i haven't even watched the episodes but i heard it's quite a good movie.

so yeah. watching it soon i hope.

last night. i spoke to mr. black man.

blackman: hoi...

ahmay: black man!

blackman: where have you been la..

ahmay: black man! i miss you long time.

blackman: no doubt i'm bad at showing my feelings or anything but i miss you badly. i need you here to talk to me now!

ash. i miss you. the coolest of the coolest macha ;)

and joyce. i know victoria secret models, they're the bomb.

hope it motivates us to get it pumping at the gym

:)

here's for you.

quickly curi your pics.

the new loves.

this is poppy pepperoni.



this is pony kicker rooney.





i bought this a while ago. very adorable that's y i have to display this little poo.

it's name is chi-yo.



damn cute right?