of cold feet. & hands.

been sick since tuesday.

road to recovery now:)

i've been hapili/sadli lost for 8 months now.

i think it's time to do something life changing.

and i believe i can.

do you believe in me?

gloom.

everyone around me especially those who are much bonded seem to be confusing me these days.

i can hardly trust anyone.

i feel this way even to the closest to me.

just as i thought i've had a handful of good people on my side, i suddenly lost hold of them.

i dont know why.

the boy weep-ed today.

and this incident confuses me.

just as soon as i was to give up everything silently, you started pouring your heart out like you've never before.

and for the first time we actually listened and..and accepted each's differing explanations.

why now?

i've always wished life would have been simpler/ i'd be a less complicated character..

in my situation right now..all i am wishing right now is to be...

happily lost.

the training. manU.

daddy looks so happy:)




manU dwarf.

jam was about an hour. and it was just to get out of the carpark.

the splat/splash series.

i took these on the way back to pg.
risky thing so dont try it especially when you're the driver.
suprised they turned out quite good when i was only using my babycam.

we the cheapskate people.
99rm for 3 hour spa session at deluxcious.
footmassage. back massage. fullbody scrub. bubbles.
damn worth it!

the shoot.

a cottonlove series. our shallow clear bathtub.

my favorite bunnybox.

so cute;)

happening-nya.

highlights. the month of juls.

1. i got into a fight with ahbiiiii. at this was the first time in such massive scale.
not too much details that i'd share...but it was really bad..we both ended up crying and so lost.
both of us didn't even know ourselves what was going on.
love drives me mad sometimes. and i was really hysterical. i've never in my life or in any of my break ups yelled like that or cried too hard. this beats the record when i was with mike.lols.
kheng:)

2. we family went to singapura to give mummy support.
her purpose was to burn a small part of her brain.
we did massive shopping too:)

3. we went for MU match and was disappointed:(
we were so excited because we knew we'll get the best seats in the stadium...mana tau..we were being seated on the secondfloor at the 5th row from the last. and it costs us 308rm each!

4. ahbiii was so nice during our stay in kl.
he put up to alot of our shit. was our driver for the whole two days. was stuck in jams most of the time as he's so totally cool with it. everyone loves him. thanks a whole lot for being so patient and so nice:)

5. i got three massive currychics on my neck.
got criticised for being so mo liu and very stupid.
i know they looked obscene but i swear to god it was a spur of the moment kind of thing.
we miss each other crazy.

6. i became depressed after kl.
dont ask why because i dont know myself.
i was feeling very low.
and i'm always trying to avoid my friends.
just felt the need to be alone yet i felt i needed friends around me too.
confusing...

7. and today. dad bought me colour pencils.
it happened when i asked my dad why they dont sell the famous luna c.pencils anymore?
he said impossible since they're like the ori.
he came in my room today and threw a big box of lunas on my bed.
still sleeping i just mumbled, ' but i din say i wanna...oso...wtvla...'
and he just went into his room. when i finally woke up and replayed the earlier scene..
it is things like that that makes you feel thankful..
to have a dad like mine.
he's the best and i know it.
no one can ever replace.
i love you daddy:) for real.

all in all i'm feeling so much better.
hopefully things will turn out just fine.

i haven't been pouring. sorry:)

i was hit by the depression monsoon since a couple weeks ago..

and i just got better.

life's a bitch:)

i'm back now and alive again.

a cottonlove series. the clear clear water.

a cottonlove series. simply breathtaking.

the pretty moon on our last night.

the beautiful picture on our last day.

a cottonlove series. the clouds.

i was so lucky to see such pretty clouds:)